You know, we always hear that God can perform miracles, and we have all heard about the miracles that God has done in other peoples lives. So why is it that in my life, God chooses not to fulfill the miracle I ask for, even when I ask over and over again. After all, the bible says in James 4:2, “you do not have because you do not ask God”. That seems clear enough, if I want something, and I believe it is consistent with what God wants for me, then if I ask, God should provide. So what is the deal, and why doesn’t God do what I want?

Well, there actually is an answer to that question, and as is often the case, the answer comes far away in the Bible, in the next verse, James 4:3, which says “When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures”. Ouch! That hurts! What do you mean I am asking for the wrong reasons, I don’t ask for money. All I want is healing, so I won’t chase after my own desires, and instead, will always consider God’s will before my own. I want it, and I want it now!

I know you are always hearing me harp on about how, only the things God does through us are of value to the kingdom, so what is wrong with praying for healing of my will. Well, I think I know the answer to my age old problem. This is the works that james talks about in James 2:18 “Show me your faith without works, and I will show you my faith by my works”. God wants me to voluntarily give up my will to Him, using my own power of choice. To which I say; I can’t do it, because I am too weak! And to this God replies; I made you the way you are, and I gave you free will, so that you could choose to do my will, or choose to do your own will. When you accepted me as your savior, I created in you a new heart and I gave you the Holy Spirit to live inside of you, so now you do have the power to make the right choice. So it is my choice. God, help me to make the right one.