Here I sit, at 2AM, thinking about how out of control my life is. If you are at all like me, there are lots of things about your life that you would change if you thought you could. You know, like, less stress in the job, more money in the pocket, or a car that didn’t breakdown every week at just the wrong time, and on and on. Of course there are good things in my life too, but the irritating bad things seem to keep popping up and screaming at me. Sometimes I feel like I’m just a small cog in a big machine, going around and around with an ever louder squeak, getting hotter and hotter. Wishing for something to make things run more smoothly. Being a Christian of course, I have the guy with the oil can in the sky. I only need to ask for some help in cooling things down. I just wish He would smooth things out, without me having to ask all the time. I think my biggest problem, is that I have trouble accepting what He has already told me, that “All thing work together for the good, for those who love God”. If that is true, then even the popping up and screaming things are for my own good. Maybe I don’t have to like it, maybe I just need to keep asking for help. Maybe He wants me to remember that I am not in control, and that He is, and that all thing are working together, even when I can’t see it.