How does my relationship with God work? Well, it works something like this;
I get up and I get ready for work. I plan to spend time some quiet time reading and praying at around 11am. I get to work, and I start on one of my tasks, and then take a break for a meeting after about an hour, then back to my task, and low and behold it is lunch time and I missed my 11am appointment with God. I tell myself that I will do better, and sometimes I do make time for God at work, but sometimes I don’t. I tell myself it isn’t about legalism, and that God will understand if my scheduled time with Him gets overridden with yet another urgent activity at work. God is VERY understanding, believe me I KNOW!
Is this the way it is supposed to work? No, but the good news is that God is very VERY forgiving, and I can tell you that His patience exceeds even the most patient of us. Some of you might say that I am playing with God, and that if I was serious I would keep my plan and not let it slip from day to day. I can only tell you that my relationship with God is just about keeping an appointment. Not that having a dedicated time to spend with God is a bad thing, in fact it is something I really want to do, but He talks to me as he is working in and around me throughout the day. I am convinced He loves me more than I even love myself.
If you think about it, that last sentence would have to be true, because I am unable to keep from failing over and over again. I am simply unable make myself do what I know I want to do. The Apostle Paul explained this in;
Romans 7:19 (NLT)
I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway.
Paul goes on to further explain this principle, but the answer for “How do I overcome this dilemma?” is in verse 25, which says “Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.”. You see there is a solution to my problem, and it is Jesus. He has all the power I need to overcome the sin that is in me. When I let Jesus take control of my situation, I cannot fail. When I take control, I am often doomed to failure.
I don’t want to fail. My desire is to trust Jesus, how about you?